For about the last 3 1/2 months I have been on an emotional roller coaster. There are highs where I feel a little bit stronger and there are lows where I could fill an ocean with all the tears I’ve cried. And every emotion there is in between. I feel fractured. Like there is literally a part of my heart missing. Who knows that you shouldn’t let your emotions rule you? I will be the first to admit that I am awful at that particular discipline. I am an open book when it comes to my emotions. I wear them on my sleeve and you can read them all over my face. But, when I feel the need to change my current emotional state or even when I just want to feed into what I’m feeling at the moment I listen to music. I love music. Below is my current playlist.
What I listen too when…
I am missing him.
“Just A Fool” –Christina Aguilera & Blake Shelton
“Can’t Shake You” –Gloriana
I need to feel stronger.
“A Little Bit Stronger” –Sara Evans
“Tell Your Heart To Beat Again” –Danny Gokey
I want assurance that God is in control.
“Trust In You” –Lauren Daigle
“This I Believe” –Hillsong Worship
I need to know who God says I am so that I can drown out what everyone else says I am.
“Good Good Father” –Chris Tomlin
I sit back and I listen and I let the melodies set me free. What songs do you listen to when you need to feel something?
Godspeed,
Mollie <3
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GREAT playlist, Mollie. 🙂 Some of those songs you share really minister to me, too. BREATHE, by Johnny Diaz really speaks to my heart, as does It Is Well, by Bethel Music. LOVE that song.
Saying a prayer for you tonight.
Thank you, Jeanne! I love Breathe as well! There are so many great songs. My playlist is ever changing. Thank you for your prayers! I appreciate them.
Mollie, thoughts and prayers are with you. For what it’s worth, here’s my playlist –
“Bad Moon Rising” by CCR
“Rooster” by Alice In Chains
“Thunderstruck” by AC/DC
“Fall Goliath Fall” by Project 86 (Christian Metal)
“Warriors” by Flatfoot 56 (Christian Celtic Punk…yes, really)
The first movement of Prokofiev’s 1st Piano Concerto (did that throw you?)
The last movement of Howard Hanson’s 2nd Symphony (the only ‘big ending’ that really works in an orchestral piece)
And, finally, “Look At All My Trials And Tribulations” from the ‘Last Supper’ scene in Jesus Christ Superstar
#1 at FMF this week.
http://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2016/09/your-dying-spouse-207-why-im-still-here.html
Christian Celtic Punk…I find that intriguing. I will have to look them up. Love the list! Thank you so much for your prayers. I really do appreciate them!
Oh Mollie, it’s so hard to say goodbye. But great reminders that God is on this with you. Let your heart beat again is one of my absolute faves! I’m in the 56 spot this week.
Yes! I absolutely need these reminders that He has it all under control and knows that everything will work out for good.
Ah, sweet lady. I wish I had a magic wand, but I don’t. And I won’t give you any canned, trite answers. Praying today that you feel, in a tangible way, God with you, healing your heart.
Thank you so much, Marie!
saying good-bye is hard for sure:( i don’t have playlists. shows you how out of date i am!) often a song in worship services meet me where i am…or randomly in the car on the radio. grief takes time. it is a roller coaster.listening to music and GOD’s Word of comfort.
He loves you more than you know. He is in everything that comes into your life. He has provided all you need to live out the christian life in a godly way. (II peter1:3-4)
blessings as you live out this hard season of grief.
Thank you, Martha! It has been a roller coaster. I am excited for the day I get to get off the roller coaster. It has definitely not been a fun ride for sure.
Thank you, Mollie, for such a transparent piece. I don’t know your story, but I do understand the value of music in healing a wounded soul. My go-to song lately is “In Jesus Name,” by Darlene Zschech. I’ve been finding myself randomly singing to myself through the day,
“God is fighting for us, pushing back the darkness,
lighting up the Kingdom that cannot be shaken.
In the name of Jesus, enemy’s defeated, and we will shout it out, shout it out.”
Praying for comfort for your weary heart.
Shauna (#19 this week)
I love Darlene Zschech! My story is one of a broken engagement. I’m writing about it for my 31 Days series this month. Thank you for your words of encouragement, Shauna.