Speak Gently

So, I’ve been talking and talking and talking.  I’ve poured out every thought that rolls around in my head over and over again.  I just need to talk.  It’s how I process the ever changing emotions and the ever present pain that goes along with a broken heart.

It’s ok to talk.  And talk and talk and talk.  But,  I always try to make sure I speak gently about this man that I love.  This man who left me.  This man who broke my heart into a million pieces.  I speak my heart, but I try to make sure my words aren’t ugly or hurtful.  It would be easy to lash out and say awful hurtful things, but what does that really accomplish.  It won’t make me feel any better and it definitely won’t hurt him.  Trying to hurt him with the words you use when you speak of him doesn’t really work.  He has moved on.  It hurts you.  It hurts your walk with God.  It hurts your character.  I don’t want to be the person who lashes out with my words when I’m hurt.  I want to be peaceful and gentle.  Someday I want to be able to look back on this time and not have many regrets about the things I said.  He is someone I love.  Why would I want tear him down?  If the impossible were to someday happen and he were to come back, how would I reconcile the words I spoke in anger in this season.  How would I apologize for that?  How would I be trustworthy after that?  Speak gently when you speak of the one who broke your heart.  Don’t let your pain become the devil’s foothold in your life.  Don’t give him permission to speak through you.  Our tongues have the power of life and death (Proverbs 18:21).  Do you want to be like Christ and speak life or like to devil and speak death over people?  Who do you want to be?  Right now in this moment, when you are in pain, when you’re not thinking as clearly as you sometimes do, this is the moment that defines who you are.  How you deal with the emotions you’re dealing with now colors who you will be going forward from this point.   I am not perfect, but I really hope that most days I am walking more closely with God than with the devil.  I hope that even now in the midst of pain I am taking steps towards being more like God today than I was yesterday.

Godspeed,
Mollie <3

Only God can heal a broken heart, but there are things we can do to help foster self healing. This post is part of my series 31 Days of Self Healing. You can find the rest of the posts for this series here.