At some point something is gonna catch your eye. There will be a glimmer of a thought of a future that you can’t fathom right now. It will be but a moment, but it will be a sign. A sign that healing has taken place. A sign that sometime, maybe sooner than you thought, the idea of a future love won’t seem so daunting, so impossible a prospect. Don’t be afraid of that moment. Don’t chase off the thoughts that spring up from there on. Let that one moment take root. Let it grow.
My moment happened while I was scrolling through my Pinterest feed. A ring caught my eye. It was a sunflower engagement ring. I love sunflowers! They are one of my two favorite flowers. There isn’t even a glimmer of a thought of another man in my head yet, but the ring… I love that sunflower ring, just not so much as an engagement ring. I would totally wear it on my other hand though. It was just a moment. But a moment that showed proof of healing.
Being in love, married, taking care of someone else, is the deepest desire of my heart. I’ve thought of it for as far back as I can remember. In the last months I have questioned that desire. I have questioned the very existence of love and if anyone would ever be able to put up with me long enough to get there. I had all but decided it was just gonna be me and my boys. Not everybody gets married right? I was resigned to the fact that it just isn’t in the cards for me. I’m just not the marrying kind. Even typing those words now has the ring of untruth, but that is where I have been for about the last month or so. Then that ring caught my eye. I may have even gone on to search for more engagement rings on Pinterest. Dating still seems a very distant thought, and marriage more distant still, but there is a glimmer of a hope. I can barely see it, but it’s there.
When that moment pops up and you catch yourself thinking of future possibilities, don’t stifle the thoughts. Let that dream plant hope in your heart. Let hope guide you forward. Dreams are just promises planted in our hearts by God. Let them grow into everything He holds in store for you.
(For those of you who are curious about the sunflower ring, you can find it on the jewelry board in my Pinterest account.)
Only God can heal a broken heart, but there are things we can do to help foster self healing. This post is part of my series 31 Days of Self Healing. You can find the rest of the posts for this series here.