Excuse me while I have a nervous breakdown real quick.
You know some days the stressors in our lives bring crashing down all of the carefully pent up fears that would paralyze us if we gave them too much thought. I’m afraid I’m going to be alone for the rest of my life. I’m afraid I’m not mothering my boys well enough. I’m afraid I’m going to turn horrible awful men out into the world because I didn’t do a good enough job. I’m afraid that I am never going to truly succeed at anything. That I will just be “trying” or “starting out” in a perpetual loop forever. I’m afraid I will always feel like a loser.
Ok, that’s over now. Time to get back up, dust myself off and walk forward. Wallowing in my failures is not an option. I choose to bring two people into this world and they deserve better than a mother who can’t see outside of her own fears long enough to raise them well and to make a better person out of herself and to keep striving for a better life for us all.
Honestly, these were my exact thoughts tonight. It’s ok to have these moments, as long as you know where to go to get yourself out of it. Here is my arsenal I choose for tonight:
And because a little bit of brave is always a good idea when you’re feeling the weight of your fears:
There is no excuse to stay weighed down by your fears. Not when God has given us all the tools we need to see through to the other side!
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